I have been seeing the likes of the poster and posts EVERYWHERE lately! And honestly it's driving me nuts! Let's start from the beginning... I've had depression since I was 16. I was never happy. I never learned how to choose to be happy. But I also never chose to be happy because there was …
Rescue
My sister in law sent me this song. I’ve never heard it before. It’s supposed to be about Jesus. She said it reminded her of me because it reminded her of my Bipolar. ⠀⠀ You are not hidden There's never been a moment You were forgotten You are not hopeless Though you have been broken …
There’s something beautiful…
There is something beautiful about baring your soul. It's therapeutic. I did not realize how much I would like Instagram and this blog when I started them. I post pictures and posters on my IG account and I talk about my feelings. I never get ridiculed or told I'm ridiculous for my feelings. I do …
“You must learn…”
"You must learn to trust that there is a future waiting for you that is beyond what you might be able to grasp at this present moment" I saw this poster and I stopped. I stopped searching for other posters. I stopped thinking. I literally stopped I never saw my future. I can not tell …
I splurged and bought a laptop
I splurged and bought a laptop… I always splurge on things. I call it a side effect from having bipolar. But never splurge on things as outrageous and expensive as a laptop! I’m pretty excited about it though as I could really get this blog up and running now. It should be here Friday. My …
May Mental Health Awareness Month
May was Mental Health Awareness Month. As someone who has suffered with mental illness for the past 18 years I love to see the hashtag #BreakTheStigma. For 18 years I’ve had a stigma following me. I’ve been the depressed one. The emotional one. The tired one. The moody one. The one who’s never hungry. All …
I’m back…for now
I’m back…for now Well, here I am. Back again with a new blog name. I started my last blog in a manic episode under a different name. I stopped it abruptly once the mania was over. Here I am to try again. I carried my only 4 blog posts over to this new blog. I …
My husband surprised me with a puppy
My husband surprised me with a Wolf Face Pomeranian and it’s the cutest, sweetest, most laid back darling little thing. I love him already! But I’m scared to death that I’ll do wrong by him. 2 years ago, before my Bipolar diagnosis, I was in the worst depression I’ve ever experienced. I did not leave …
I miss me
I miss me I miss me. I miss the laughter and the light heartedness. I miss the warmth of the sunshine. I miss my brother. I miss the nights spent with my friends being carefree. I miss my family. I miss being the fun mom. I desperately want my life back. This life I’m living …
I miss the mania
I miss the mania Being manic, there’s no explaining it. When I’m manic I’m on top of the world. I’m so happy. I love everyone. My house is spotless along with my yard. I’m more productive at work. I long for those manic days. I long to feel free of the depression and suicidal thoughts. …
